No I'm not talking about Christmas. I'm talking about my proposal and oral exam coming up soon. It's always on my mind. My facebook status says that I am either working on or thinking about or dreaming about my proposal.
I did a practice today for some of friends from my department. It was great to get feedback and suggestions from my peers. I feel like even though I have such a large amount of work to still do (mainly just reading and pondering the chemistry of EVERYTHING), I have direction. I know what areas I need to read up on.
Of course, while all this is going on, I'm still trying to balance everything else. Josh has been great and taken care of mostly everything around the house. With Thanksgiving break, I'll get some time to relax and time to read and study, too. The hardest part is balancing all of this with my relationship with God. I am working hard at still going to church and doing my bible studies, but when my thoughts are so saturated with proposal thoughts, I really question if it's all worth it. When I graduate, I know that it'll be worth having a ph.d, but I never want to do graduate work again. It's difficult keeping God first in your life and in your thoughts and in your actions when all your mind is saying, "Work on the proposal!" My comfort though is that I know all of this is in His hands. Whatever happens, I know I'll be okay. Of course though, I've been praying that I pass. : )
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thanks for the encouraging words. it means a lot! love ya
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